The Self, Society and the Soul

I read all my writings and find they are quite hard to read and probably to understand also. Many are just plain rants. So I tried to abbreviate all of it into one work. It is available in audio also via this link

1. The Self

So the world seems doomed. What if though it wasn’t? We percieve it with the eyes of our minds and judge it with our emotions. When I say the eyes of our minds I mean that we don’t take it at face value. What is one brief look at a situation? It’s only a small glance. To be able to understand what you saw in one brief glance can take lifetimes.
We rely on our senses to take in what is around us so that we can understand it. Though the more you work on learning to understand more of what you see the more you can see. We as a part of this Universe need to also be able to cope and function inside it so we really see very little and are able to comprehend with our minds very little of what we see and feel.
If i were to tell you that you and everything around you is so amazing and so awe inspiring that it would leave you in a constant state of astonishment would you believe me? Well it is and you can see that too. It’s just a matter of learning to think outside your normal patterns of thought for a while.
If you were to look at any room on planet Earth for example, even the most basic room then there is awe and wonder there and you, as the most intelligent thing in that room are tuned out so that you don’t notice it. Why? Because you need to survive the room so cannot be distracted.
For a start the room is moving through space at a fast rate as it orbits the sun.  The entire room is moving, inside the movement all the things in the air things are moving too. Each breath drawn in and out sends many many air particles off on new courses around the room and around the world.
The air is also full of signals and data being sent, awash with images and sounds you cannot even see. Similarly you can’t see the lives of all the tiny insects and bacteria that live there, leading full lives. The fabric of the room is also hard to see, trillions of variations, compositions and textures all in the shape of one boring room.
Then there’s the History of the entire room, what happened to each bit of it to make it there to become part of a boring room. If there is metal in the room, it was once under the earth in a rock and people came and dug it up , bringing it to the surface and refining the metals until it was formed into a part of the room.
In order for there to be metal in the room many breakthroughs in mining technology had to be reached. Which in turn relied upon breakthroughs in farming, to feed the workers and the economy to make the workers want to mine.  Wars had to be fought in order for the miners to be free to work.
Everything in the room all has a shared History that relied on what really happened on Earth to have happened the way it did. Likewise it all relied on the History of the entire Universe to have happened smoothly and exactly the way it did. Everything effects and relies upon everything else and so do you.
A person in a room has a mind to perceive the room and an identity as a member of the Universe the room is a part of. Everything inside them relied on countless years of natural selection, very many births, lives and deaths make up their history. They are creatures who have evolved all the abilities they need to be able to change things based on thought rather than random trial and error.
All that has a History too, anything made with technology in the room has a history that goes back to the first stone handaxe made. But say the person in the boring room didn’t make the room themselves and they don’t care what did. Just to do that their evolved body is sending masses of information back and forth inside.
Each word, thought and the ability to remember the word goes right back to the first person to understand the meaning of the word and the first memory retention ability formed on Earth. As much as we feel we are alone we are in fact deeply interconnected with everything that ever there was and everything that ever there will be.
Like ‘The Butterfly Effect’ thinking where each beat of a butterfly’s wing could spread out into a storm on the other side of the world. The same way, every single thing that happens to the person and that the person does spreads out and is connected with the History of everything that is in the Universe. The difference being is that the person can choose what to do. They have a willpower and information that helps them choose how to act.

But what if that information is not clear, then they don’t know how to act properly so they resort back to trial and error to satisfy any needs or wants they have. If they find something that works then they’ll stick to it until it doesn’t. Which is a pretty good explanation of all of human History. It just happened the way it did because it was the best idea at the time.
Our History is a horrid mess of war against each other and against other species such as viruses. Any security to stop and think is relatively new to us. We have mostly either been lost in prayer for a better day or working for a better day. Survival here is cut-throat and desperate for wild animals. We live in the same state yet we have each other to help us survive and so forget about the risks.
We have the first major safe breathing room and the first set of scientific facts to try to understand within that breathing room. Everything has been so busy just trying to get us to a point where we had time to relax around a campfire at night and share ideas. It still is busy, just to maintain what we have takes a lot of work. We work so we don’t have to feel the reality that life is cut-throat and desperate, that we could die of thirst after a couple of days without clean drinking water.
What better to do with this earned opportunity than to use it to assess what blind trial and error lead us to. Then to use it as a guideline to start to do what we really want to do and have always wanted to do. To turn Earth into a paradise without true nightmares for our young to grow up in safely and learn to enjoy.
People use the term ‘survival of the fittest’ and many people think this is the only path to follow because that’s all that ever has happened here. A successful changes in a species’ genes help them survive so that their offspring may survive whilst other species die out. Of course that’s a sensible course of action though the term ‘survival of the fittest’ is misleading.
Say if I thought I was the fittest i went and killed everybody else apart from a herd of cows and a childbearing woman. My genes would certainly then be called the fittest because they were the only ones left, apart from the cows of course who would outnumber humans and be the dominant species on Earth.
My offspring would end up interbred and insane. We basically wouldn’t survive without the support of many. If you are overly concerned with your genetics then think how did you take ownership of your genetics? One day you will die and your children may live on thanks to your desire to have sex. Though really the genes you own are the property of everything that came before them to make them. They are the universe’s not yours’.
All the ecosystem of Earth relies on each other for survival. Like we rely on grass growing to feed the cows. The grass relies on bacteria and worms and fertilizer. Everything in our Eco-system in some way relies on each other for survival. Only the fittest ecosystem is what becomes of survival of the fittest.
Considering that we ourselves have so far survived to be here after all the many things that came together to make us. Then we should not see ourselves as a mistake or a part of something negative. Not when we have this pause for thought. We are not really to blame for what we do when we don’t know any better and neither is the species.
Humans have limited perceptions of what we see and understand. We mostly focus on the worst parts of it too. We don’t hold dear memories of most of our life which was spent just doing everyday things. If you ignore all the bad memories and the good memories then most of your life was spent safely just living. Something amazing that we find so boring.
Likewise it was the same for most of the lives ever on Earth. Despite whatever grizzly deaths each life may have met the vastly predominant way of life has mostly been just living day to day and doing normal human, animal or insect type things. If they showed on the News all of the lives that went safely that day, then each day’s News would be so long nobody could ever take it all in. So most of life is at peace and always has been.
History and all the hard lives lead in it is only a recent thing when you consider how long the Universe has been moving around before there ever was a homosapien born. Before we turned to farming we were tribal and hunter-gatherers for most of the History of mankind. That’s nothing to be ashamed of. Yet we often feel negatively about our species after all the technology we made and what we put each other through to make it.
We give ourselves too much credit. The history of humans and the present state of humans can be a very bitter truth to swallow. Some of us have been monstrous to others for no reason at all.  Humans are born not knowing, are born ignorant. We adapt to any status quo so well because we are very good at accepting things for how they are.
We have the ability to adapt to any ideas we need to and since nobody has ever had all the right ideas. So people accept and adapt to the wrong ideas which could lead to anything, often horror and bloodshed.
The world is not how most of us want it to be which is not our fault it just happened that way and mistakes were made. Which is not to say the world could never become what we want it to be. As new lessons are being learned. It may all end up OK and this future we have made so far is not the pinnacle of it, just a traumatic time leading up to a better life.

Our opinions of the same occurrences on this planet in this universe differ greatly depending on who we are. Though at the end of the day each second happens only one way atomically so it has only one truth to it. A truth that might take us lifetimes to understand.  For understanding life is in itself a process.
We are not born automatically able to understand things let alone the meaning of the world and its events. Thankfully even if we live in a mentally restrictive society we can still think whatever we want to inside.  Though how free do you allow yourself to be in your mind? Thinking is a great adventure with many pitfalls.
Thinking about the world and its problems can make you very depressed even if it was all not your fault. If we take our heads out of the drama we can see that there are people suffering here. Everybody who isn’t happy and safe is suffering, if only from depression. There is little value in mourning the negative, the negative should be used only as a way to learn how to make things positive.
If we don’t like something then we need to understand why we don’t.  Many things upset us which are not actually an issue. Like homosexual people being a part of the species. Some people get wound up all their lives about that. But why? Well, someone called Leviticus wrote in a book once that they didn’t like the idea. Because most aren’t homosexual they went along with what was written. Then everyone lost the great value of having openly homosexual friends. Which are an essential part of a human tribe and make life easier for the heterosexual couples.
Our freedom of thought allows us to think our way straight into corruption and idiocy. It can lead us to make great mistakes and commit horrible acts. It can also make us very ill. Where we really need to begin our thoughts is to bring ourselves to the present moment and know that we may be wrong about something. It’s statistically more likely we are wrong about things than right as there are many guesses to only one truth. So let’s admit we could be wrong about everything we know.
To ‘know that we know nothing’ is a way of driving down our egos from thinking our first assumption to something may not actually be accurate. To know that you know nothing is known as the first step on the path to enlightenment and was thought of by Socrates. If you think in this way always then you are always open to being corrected if a better explanation comes along.
For to never be able to change your mind after having made a decision upon something makes you closed off from getting any nearer to the truth of events. You have decided and may be wrong. The essence of the issue being that to be able to rethink matters makes you a lot more intelligent. It also allows you to be able to discuss any matter without freaking out. It is mental leeway and only comes after you know that you know nothing.
If you are free to change your mind you have basically given yourself the freedom to think. You have allowed yourself to change your mind on anything you think you know. You are free to choose how you perceive yourself and the world and the heavens. But the ego will creep in again.
All we really hold of value within ourselves and for ourselves is the honesty we hold inside ourselves. Only we know what we really saw and felt each day. With life being complex and hard in current times it is easy to let a few lies to yourself slip in. Many people’s internal world is one of self-loathing or defending their inner voice from a constant internal feed of negativity. Whilst others big-up themselves internally all the time just to cope with being downgraded in life.
What we need to be is honest about ourselves and to ourselves about everything. What harm could it do? We need to realize we are a part of something much bigger where every life is equal. Internal honesty is a good start to any healthy thought process because when you can trust yourself inside without lying to yourself then you have a much more mental accuracy hence a greater chance of making better decisions.

Who do you blame for the problems you see honestly in your life is an important thing to think about. You can blame nasty people for giving you problems, or blame the drug-dealers or upbringing that made them grow to be nasty to you. You can blame your parents for dragging you into this world. You can blame God for not making life easy. You can blame yourself for your failings.
Really the blame game could go on forever and that is what makes the depressed so suicidal. They think they’ve been done wrong and are trapped in that state, wanting to die to get out of it. As long as you blame outside forces for the state you are in, even if they deserve the blame. Then you are not taking responsibility for yourself.
It’s scary to take responsibility for yourself. It’s always easier to think everything is something else’s mistake, even you. The fact is, you’re here you’re you. You’re as confused as the rest of us deep down and that is OK. Life isn’t ideal for many of us, even if we’re spoilt by riches it can still turn a person into a person they don’t want to be. We must accept who we are but do it in a non-fatalistic way. People do change, just many don’t want to try to.
Our freedom of thought and honesty of thought allows us to be able to change our minds, we can even change parts of ourselves. Though such processes take baby steps, many tiny steps towards a change in the self are needed before anything will change inside you, because you are telling your brain what you want and it adapts eventually in response to your continued willpower to try learn how to be that way if it is possible.
There are three steps to solving any problem. The first is admitting you have a problem which takes a lot of self-honesty, self-forgiveness and understanding. It is the hardest part of solving any problem. The second part of solving a problem is to figure out what to do about the problem. A step which requires great bravery and deep thought.
It is easy to come across great problems when thinking internally, what if you find you have some form of mental illness? Finding you have a neuroses or two is quite normal.  Thinking is hard work. Some develop irrational phobias about anything and everything that control their lives. Others obsess and worry about everything. Being revolted by germs for example and avoiding touching things or being terrified you left the stove on all night long and keeping having to check it.
You can become obsessed with food or your weight. The Ancient Greeks noted many many common irrational neuroses that minds still fall into as we as modern people have similar minds. The third step to solving a problem is to actually invoke the plan and do it. With baby steps many changes are possible within one’s internal world, we are more versatile than we think.
Of course some mental problems are more medical problems that cause mental problems. Schizophrenics genetically seem to give out too many brain chemicals which can cause all sorts of problems such as anxiety, hallucinations and psychosis. The problems go away when blockers are put on the brain cells to stop the chemicals getting in, as it is with anti-psychotic medication.
Many of us feel anxious such as when we are so stressed by our lives that the para-sympathetic nervous response kicks in and we have a panic/anxiety attack, the fight or flight response. Is that really insanity though? If we don’t feel them when we’re alone and at peace then they are a genuine response to a real situation.
However inconvenient it is the sub-conscious brain decides it’s time to leave and puts you through hell just to get out of that situation. Why does it do it? Because it can pick up on the fact that modern society is not quite right in the head and it is scary. It’s not what we’re used to genetically either, we’re used to the great outdoors and tribes not concrete jungles and solitude.
If you have ever found a trace of mental illness in yourself or some highly negative unwarranted thoughts. Then others are likely to have them too.  Those others may be reveling in them though we can’t make the world sane, just ourselves. That is our power and our freedom.
We are all our own worst enemy. When you accept responsibility for yourself then you can admit that. What we fear normally controls us more than we do ourselves. A nightmare dreamt is a realization of that. We are even running in our dreams. We run until we become confident and with enough self-esteem to turn and face all that we fear and face it down.
For what is there to fear? If we die we go whatever way trillions of people already have and perhaps either get reborn or go to some form of afterlife or are merely turned off and don’t have anything to worry about because we have no ability to worry any more. Monsters don’t live here apart from a few big animals and people don’t often need to fear them. The greatest monsters on Earth are viruses and bacteria and they don’t bear ill will, they just want to survive.
The closest thing we get to our nightmares are people who are lost in their heads attacking you for no reason. Because they’re so lost in their heads they like to. We fear going deeper into suffering from being attacked, though that fear is just there to remind you life is not safe, which it is not. But if you already know that then why do you need the fear to tell you that? Because it is better at controlling you than you are, it doesn’t trust your ability to be careful.
To be the master of your mind you need to face your internal fears down. To face your fear down successfully you can grow in strength and confidence. You can have the self-esteem that comes from being in control of yourself and not simply running from existence.

2. The Society

The past of course has already happened. All of the entire history of everything here came to make the history of the world and of people. It has left us in a strange status quo which was inevitable. We grow up in this status quo with imaginary borders all around the world which people have long fought for. It used to be their favorite game.
Also many religions have sprouted up trying to put answers to unanswerable questions at that time. Questions which people would have had to wonder about for their entire lives. Then money was in the mix too and so we’re brought into this universe as children surrounded by a huge information wall of inaccuracies and false advertising.
We grow up thinking a piece of cloth such as a flag is worth dying for. We grow up thinking foreigners are as different to us as aliens. We really see a difference between France and Germany because of this, as an example.  We see it vividly and feel the real difference between France and Germany, however they are the same land mass.
Our history has raised us to be racist basically. It has raised us to think other people are so different that they are a almost a different species. Yet if the French and Germans lived as one country, if the whole world did then how could we hate our own countrymen? Well we could not like them but what I’m trying to say is that we are all the same species and resident on the same planet.
Even if we were not the same species there is no reason to hate someone else just because they are different. Yet we are raised to do just that. Because history was such a mess of war and battles for money, we need our borders. We will need our borders for as long as we keep the ability to become a developed country to ourselves.
People raised hating others don’t naturally want to share with those from a poorer foreign country. If those people in the poorer country can’t afford the items in the rich country then they’re supposed to stay out in the cold. Just as the poor who live in the rich country are supposed to do.
We’re raised in the status quo to think that this is normal healthy behavior for us as a species. To basically hate our fellow man is considered normal, just as long as there’s a difference in accent or just a difference in clothes or hairstyle even. We were not born thinking that way we learned it.
We’re raised to think we were born in one country and therefore are a citizen of that country and owe it taxes and must pay its debts. We may also be born into a family that teaches us to be Muslim, Catholic or any of the religions available today. Which adds a lot more nonsense to what we’re taught to understand as life.
People grow up naturally accepting whatever state life is in at the time as normal and the status quo. This society makes people highly susceptible to manipulation to not even have a sane common-sense start to their lives but one of pure insane nonsense. People do use the shared madness to manipulate each one of us. The rich families basically want to stay rich so they organize society so that to speak out against the madness is considered madness. We are all raised to respect the rich as the leaders of society and not rock the boat of an already precarious seeming status quo where all our lives seem to always be on the line.
Exploitation is natural it seems as all species exploit any chances they get to eat food or gain territory. Humans as tame animals are just the same. Which is why it is important to have a frame of mind where you are not easily manipulated. For that you need to take your head out of all the brainwashing of life and see the facts of humanity for what they are. By doing that we can seal such holes in our armor that leave us vulnerable to exploitation and manipulation.

Currently most people have no clarity of thought and are totally sold to the dogma they are fed and they will even fight you for it, because they’re in so deep they can’t admit that they might be wrong, to fight you or argue with you for talking sense is easier. They fight for the sanity of the dollar. That is all we have left of hope, how sad.
In the pursuit of money we have lost who we are and who we could become. If the global monetary system recirculated financial digits then it would actually work. What actually happens is most of the successful exploit it to become richer and richer so that digits go to waste collected in their bank accounts.
It also puts a price on your life. How much are you worth to keep alive? If you can’t find work then you are probably worth very little. If you get sick and need help then few are likely to give that help. In a totally financial society all are ultimately given a pricetag and are shunned if that price isn’t much.
This is what history has lead us to. Wherever you are born you are priced and left to either survive or starve. This is survival of the fittest in action and you can see how it has twisted who we are as the leaders of all life on Earth. Each other, our tribe is now our competitor in the great game of working for money. The greatest tribe ever has become totally divided.
There’s no real goal in life any more other than to become rich. People choose money over family and soldiers take pay to do any act. The inventions of technology make it all worse, with less work needing to be done to satisfy our basic needs less people are getting paid for that work and the ranks of the homeless are forever swelled.
Money isn’t the worst idea we could have come up with. At least it keeps things moving and most of us fed. Though unemployment is like death so the pinnacle of evolution ends up as a drug fueled party with the poor knocking at the gate, wanting to get in. We’re trapped like that unless we accept who we really are and design society around that instead.
We need to start to comprehend that the rich are not our divine rulers. Most of them are scammers for goodness sakes. Just because they are excellent at making money does not mean we should worship them for as long as we do we put ourselves in a lower, subordinate position.
What if the money didn’t really exist? Then all would be deemed equal. Which is what we really are, just differently skilled. Putting a pricetag on your equals is where we give up any true progress in our emotional and mental evolution. We have sold our future, we have sold our evolution and our hearts.
The problem is money alone doesn’t match who we are as a species for the best possible future. Money in itself needs to be regulated. Basic common sense tells us that if we make a machine to take the work of many we should make sure the many defunct workers can still survive a life.
Those on the bottom of the competition between equals should be given buying power basically. If we really must continue with the idea of cash for a life then there should be a safety net for those left with none. Because what do you get if there is nothing to fall back on? Each one of us could end up homeless and starving, selling our bodies for a sniff of drugs just to cope with it.
Otherwise at every party in the future there will need to be locked doors and armed guards just to keep the poor out. Whilst the partygoers inside need to close off the love in their hearts for anyone not fortunate. That’s the future of humanity and survival here. The best our combined wisdom and armies could do.
The only other solution is to regulate finances. We don’t want to penalize the rich for being successful, that would take away everyone’s life goals of becoming rich. Yet they’re money making addicts who will cut down anyone who tries to stop that. Why don’t we give them a greater purpose to becoming rich? Why don’t we force them to do something worthwhile with their extra cash?
The population of Earth has a whole list of things that need to be done. Some countries don’t even have proper plumbing yet. This love we have of hiding wealth from each other by out-earning them leaves most parts of the world not worth living in. Until the entire world becomes a set of drug fueled parties with locks on the doors.
The best way out of it that I can see is to list every job that needs doing and put laws on how much can be put into savings each year by any businessman. Then force them to spend the extra they make on saving the world basically. Maybe it would make them happy to work for a better world rather than just their bank account. The fact is there needs to be a laws on money that accept base human nature for what it is and produce the best result for all life here out of that knowledge.
For only when each country is nice to live in for all will we ever have any peace and be free to walk our planet unharrased and unmolested. Simply selling out because we can’t think of a better idea actually makes the planet full of places the rich cannot go. Places where humans drag other humans through hell for the idea of money.
When each of us gives up on any better ideas and sells their life to money then they are also buying into the ways which money corrupts. They’re buying into all of it. Such as the idea doctors should refuse treatment to the sick if the sick are poor. They’re buying into the idea that third-world countries should stay third world countries. They’re buying into crack and heroin dealing because they’re just business ideas. All has been made fair play as long as produces a profit.
Though where really is the profit? To have a world you can’t walk and find friends in. To die outside a doctor’s surgery? Not regulating money leaves us with a crappy future where all is not wholesome. Where nobody is happy and all are alone when surrounded by a crowd. It’s just simply not worth the price. The leaders of the Eco-system should be more for the betterment of life not just to make it a battle between all life.
Our laws need to reflect who we are as a species and reflect both the positive and negative strengths of us with the actual result of those laws being directed towards the happiness of all. Making a profit out of curing illness is a good example of how we ended up so twisted. In order for the doctors to gain a good life out of becoming doctors they must let people suffer and die of simple illnesses? How was that a sensible idea?
It’s like our criminal justice systems. They’re very dated and ineffective at fighting crime. Throwing people in cells to spank their bottoms for becoming corrupt and doing negative things, it doesn’t stop the trauma they caused or teach them not to be corrupt. At the end of the day we need to learn to accept other people as people too. Criminals are human beings too. They know what went wrong with their lives and so they know how to prevent crime in others. That should be how we use them, rather than just traumatizing them into having to live out their life in a cell.
Our laws and the implementation of them are very dated and naive. If the idea is to stop crime from happening in the first place then they are as good as useless. In a world of sell outs there really is no reason to follow the lighter course of life. One may as well declare themselves a wolf and the rest of their species sheep and keep on killing and stealing their wool. We should reorganize society so that being nice and good is actually beneficial. This would be beneficial to all.
Which is how society should be structured, with the benefit of all in mind. With a future for all and of course a safety net of having a base value of being a human which isn’t fighting for your stuff in a back alley but of having a secure healthy life to fall back on if your business fails and some buying power to spend in that safety net. We need to bring in laws that give the safety net and spend our spare cash on renovating our own country and other countries to a healthy standard of living so that we do not need borders or locks on the doors of every party. So that it is possible to be happy without drugs because the world is a good place to be born into. To prevent crime and also to take away the need for it so that our streets are safe to walk and developments in technology do not make life worse for all but better.

3. The Soul
There’s a million different theories and ways to explain life as we know it. Spending your life begging a supreme being for everything is deemed normal and healthy. Though what if there is a supreme God and they don’t have any ability to help us? They would be trapped impotently watching us rape each other and tear each other apart.
It must be horrific to be an omnipotent creature. Despite all the boring everyday peaceful things that happen there must be much trauma to witness if you could witness the life of everything on sell out planet Earth.
Whatever God really is then they likely make sense as everything here appears to make sense. Magic seems to be something you have to do with technology. Basically all the fancy explanations of life cannot get past the fact that if you imagined 2+2=5 your fantasy never will come true because 2+2=4.

All life here may have a soul it may not. Souls don’t make financial sense so they are often discounted as a magical idea. That doesn’t have to be the end of the explanation of existence though. When energy leaves a body it’s not easy to get that energy to come back. If we have no soul then there really is no point as we are basically a bunch of automatic robots without even basic humane rights to our lives.
The life of a creature who does not procreate is basically a waste in that realm of thought. Though if they did have children their offspring would always have to procreate or their entire bloodline was a waste of time. The world is heading to crap without some changes in our structure so it’s unlikely your children’s children would be able to afford a Coca Cola just to stop themselves from dying of thirst. There’s no point in going on.
If it does require some sort of soul energy in order to make a life then that soul energy must be a part of this universe where nothing can be destroyed, it can only change forms. Everything is still here from the start of the Big Bang. Just in a different form. It would be the same for any soul energy. For time is only movement inside an eternal cause and effect universe. When a body dies their energy must change forms. We do not know enough to accurately say into what.
Being the soul of a human, if such a thing exists, then it must be pretty bad to be locked into a future and present where everything is for sale for money we cannot take beyond the grave. The time for reorganization of the species to make it worth living is soon. We must give our lives meaning because the meaning of life at the moment is it sucks and then you die.

Eric Dawson 20th/June/2016


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