Can You Stand?

I’m bored so I decided to take a break from being humble and an outcast to try work some sense into my fragile species. I find that just explaining why people’s bizarre behavior is wrong and bizarre doesn’t even cause a ripple in the ocean of madness that we all live together with as a species, dragging many other animals with us.

What is plainly clear is that people just don’t want to know. There is a good reason for that. Human beings are born as very fragile creatures and that never stops until they die. You would think that big strong men and women were big and strong. Though challenge them with something that questions their world view and they will first cover it up with their personal brand of bullshit then secondly run a mile away from you.

Everyone is running away from the facts of life, globally. They’re frigging terrifying and though I see the reason they run I don’t see the point in it. People prefer to live with no point to their lives. It seems like the only way for them to survive is to run and hide from common sense.

Before we put our brains into religion only, now we are losing that we put them wherever the heck we can to escape the fact that our world views, our base understanding of life is completely wrong. People can’t survive talking about brutal or deep matters so they make a mockery of them and put their brain into some distraction or other.

They’re basically far too sensitive and cowardly for this universe. I don’t know why they are here. Just a load of pussies who can’t admit when they’re wrong. Why should they though? There’s absolutely no incentive or gain for them. It’s better for these timid creatures to stay insane because they don’t seem capable of anything rational. Well it would be better if the suffering generated by their clown crazy antics wasn’t deafening. Talk about a big cry for help.

We carry on making a mess and weaving a vast web of complete bullshit. Yet the bullshit people make causes more suffering because they didn’t have a clue what they were doing which just makes more need to distract yourself until in the far off future nobody can handle living here without some hefty drugs to maintain the mood.

They carry on and on the great human effort to make everything simple enough to mentally and emotionally digest, why not make it a big competition where there are winners and losers. It has more incentive. Yet to anyone with a shred of sense it makes little logical sense to feed some bullshitting contest.

I could write reams and reams of text about how much bullshit there is in the world. How much noise compared to clear signal of sense.  Though I am sick of trying to make sense out of madness. All you can do is understand where it starts and accept it for what it is. A planet populated by a load of tender souls who cant stand life and want to ignore it.

When they shun an outcast they’re basically just reaffirming their insane world view that their life makes some productive sense. They will often band together just to shun anything that contradicts them, everyone does it is a basic structured delusional reality, the more people who shun the outcast then the bigger the reaffirmation of their delusional worlds.

The outcome naturally results in the world being made more of a twisted mess of bullshit where people talk a good game like they’re strong people, yet they really don’t want to know anything important because the truth is far too horrific for them to digest.

I guess there is no choice for them. If they can’t be honest because it’s too horrific for them then what can they do other than live a life of bullshit? It’s not that complicated really to think more honestly. Yet you have to be brave enough to think for a start. To think you are lost and so is everyone else is just too much to bear I guess.

There’s really no point in frustrating yourself with the problems of the world. They’re going to happen and continue happening. For the simple reason everyone is too scared to admit they devoted their entire lives to nothing substantial, just a load of bullshit. All the time the grass is growing, the sun is shining, we could all be having a wonderful time. Yet that will not happen easily because who stops and enjoys themselves in the middle of a contest of bullshit, it’s dangerous in a world of crazy people. Let them litter the party venues, rape each other and sell each other drugs they can’t possibly handle.

Ignorance isn’t bliss it’s madness when it exists with the power of a human brain behind it, it really is a choice. There is no living proof of what a God might even want for example. Yet it’s so important to people not to think about reality they throw all that brainpower into such a madness.

It’s like tell a child that Santa Claus comes down the chimney every year, it’s better the innocent don’t learn that he was just a generous wealthy man who didn’t like the idea of little girls being forced into prostitution. He was such a freak for that in his age that he became world famous for actually giving a wouldbe child prostitute some wealth when he didn’t have to. That’s not being a saint, he was probably just thinking rationally.

If I said Jesus was a delusional schizophrenic and Mohammed was an enigmatic conman then it doesn’t quite have the same ring. It doesn’t make a good distraction to reality so cover that up with bombs and suicide. Invade a country or two and kill them all, do whatever it takes to not think. The religious despite their might are too scared to admit anything.

So instead I’m going to feel superior for not having a religion that doesn’t make any sense and make a lot of money instead so that I will be successful. The pursuit of wealth is a distraction just as strong as religion. The species has become so muddled up with trying not to exist here mentally that the only way to get us to work together is to make it a big competition with a prize of a home and food.

To buy into that competition means even if you are successful, the pure for-profit nature of your life is fundamentally designed to have many more people be less wealthy and if you’re really lucky you’ll consume so many resources that the masses starve.

Similar bullshit happened in Russia when they became communist. They simply banned money and religion because it made no sense. It was a bold move from a desperate people, yet there was nothing to replace them. The west freaked out that they would have to stop and think in a world without money so they paid their leaders to threaten to destroy the planet with nuclear bombs.

The cold war is a good example of how little everyone knows. The Russians were not as successful without money and religion, apparently the west won because they made cellphones and better television. The best outcome was that nobody had to think about anything real.

Communist USSR should have been paradise. Communist China should have been a powerhouse of creativity. Yet it seems when you take the bullshit away from people then they fear and look to the first person who seems to pretend to have a clue what to do. It’s basically a scared mass who’s fear unites them against outcasts and different people. Unity is good, yet a unity of terrified fragile humans doens’t end well.

The only difference between the chinese and the americans is the americans have more nonsense to deal with and so are divided. Unite them all under the same lost scared banner and it wont be long until they do stupid stuff like murder their newborn children too. The delusions the chinese shared made a good incentive to the murders. I’m not racist and obviously the chinese are just as human as we are. We would obviously do the same in the same situation. It’s just slightly more palatable to the american delusions to have kids survive just not happily. Better to have them shoot each other on the streets or slog their life out in some horrid job whilst everyone distracts themselves by talking crazed nonsense.

The human brain works on incentive yet there is little incentive to thinking clearly because it hurts and it doesn’t get you anywhere. People hate it so much they would rather employ a leader to think for them. These leaders are about as wise as ‘let’s make enough bombs to destroy the world then tell people we’re going to’. I guess it’s easier for people to let that happen than to stand out at all and be made an outcast by the crazies.

We are tribal animals after all, we love to belong in a pack though anyone with a grain of common sense would notice we are all of the same pack. That’s blatantly obvious though it will not stop your brother from running into you with a suicide bomb and it wont stop you paying to have someone shoot the annoying Muslim cos they’re wackadoo. Yet shooting them dead is fighting fire with fire, or bullshit with bullshit and you’re left in future with even more of a mess. Which has much incentive for many people because it’s a great distraction that could go on for thousands of years.

Pass on delusions to your kids or tell them something honest like you brought them into a shithole because you felt motivated to do. Now they must fight in an insane competition to be the most successful crazy alive so that they never have to scrub a floor on hands and knees. You basically bought them a turn on an insane lottery wheel in a world where luck isn’t a real thing just a coincidence.

Which is not a good reason to not have a baby. All of us are essential parts of life, the life we live was hard won out of nothing, it is growing and has value. Yet it is fundamentally insane which was natural for this sensitive species tamed. No reason to give up and a lot of reason to try take care of these weak ill souls.

Eric Dawson 29th August 2016

P.S. Fuck you it’s bloody obvious, stop being a pussy. Hoping for an apocalypse so that we may have an ‘intervention’ is just a manifestation of your crazy which is not logical or practical therefore it’s unlikely to work. It seems our greatest challenge in life is to accept real life and talk about it. Weird but true.

Ethics

History has left quite a mess, using money as a form of trade has caused many issues. It sort of works as a system but not half as well as it could work if the system were more designed to represent who we basically are as people. Many think we are doomed, we have almost started a nuclear holocaust a few times just from a few accidents.

But why save the world? We are all born into a monetary society as independents so we like to save only our independent selves when we grow up. Making the rest of the world better is a waste of time. It’s a lofty ideal for hippies and people wasting their lives. This is how we think, it’s almost logical.

Yet when you think about it, saving the world is good for you. Working towards working together to make life good for everything here is actually a win win win situation. For a start, say you were religious and are heading for the afterlife one day. When there you would still think of planet Earth and how well it was doing. God would also be interested in planet Earth and the life there also.

If you were Buddhist you would be coming back to planet Earth so you would be very concerned how good life there is. In fact everyone who is spiritual in any way would benefit greatly from life on Earth being positive and not a harsh struggle in a savage environment. We lived here once at least and we forever will remain connected to what happened here when we lived and what happens afterwards.

If the world was doing its best to be positive and healthy for all who live there then I assume our souls would appreciate that. So if Earth was an awesome place to live for all then it’s a great win win win situation that lasts forever for your immortal soul.

Say if you were deeply Atheist, why on Earth would you want to save the world when you could be only saving yourself? Because you live here! If you see problems with the world and ignore them. Then for your entire life those problems will likely still be there. Lives are longer than you think.

If we are really accidentally conscious lifeforms stuck in a twist of fate then the logical course of action would be to make life better for ourselves to minimize our suffering throughout our lifetimes. Yet survival here is a team effort even with the use of money to make it work. The source that feeds us survival (everybody else) can also work against us. If everyone just works for themselves then the source that feeds us has no cause to not work against us. As mathematically proven if we work for ourselves and the benefit of the group we are in then all benefit, the group you belong in is the conscious lifeforms group.

For Atheists all that they will ever be is the change they made to matter and energy here, their surviving offspring and the thrill of their once existence here. I’m saying that if they lived for the positivity of all as well as themselves then them and Atheists all over the world would have a better experience throughout their entire lives. Working just for yourself is great but what if you lose your strength to old age? Then others will exploit your weakness in such a competitive society, such as happens in the Western World where old people are exploited for their money and rejected from modern society.

Atheist society should be good for Atheists so it would be a win to help the group as well as yourself. The Atheist offspring are their future and they will be left independent to survive in the group the parents made better or worse, that is the legacy. Religious society is eternal in the soul so they should focus on the quality of life here for an eternal positivity rather than regret or fear. Basically for everyone there is no logical sense to making the world worse when we could make it better because at the end of the day we’re stuck with it. Anyone who knowingly makes the world worse is either wrong/inaccurate or deeply insane or deeply insane because their head is full of wrong. Making life better for all is a Meaning of Life that makes sense for each of us.

Eric Dawson 16th August 2016

The Kingdom of Hell

What if we didn’t see our planet as a nice place? What if it were actually a bitter hellhole where all life is a struggle? Perhaps that would explain how our species evolved to be so uncaring and vicious. Babies come into the world  as highly adaptable creatures that can become accustomed to any reality. If raised in a stable home then they often expect life to be a lot better than it really is.

Most of how their future advertised to them is fake. Little do they know they have two choices. Be real and have everyone harass and isolate  you or join the masses and live a fake life pretending to be like everyone else. Life is not cosy and happy most of the time as they are born into bodies with many vulnerabilities. Also the body they’re born into is full of feral drives to eat the flesh of other creatures and many other drives and wants that are not healthy such as to rape.

Maybe life isn’t the fairy tale it’s supposed to be, not because of who we are but because the planet Earth is a dangerous horrid place where no soul with a shred of sense would choose to live in. We’re surrounded at all times by so many things that want to destroy us. Such as lethal near invisible monsters of viruses and bacteria and that’s after we had to overcome the sabre-toothed tigers.

So you grow up in this lethal cesspool of a place and then your brain tries to spend half its time being racist, the rest of the time it has to avoid being corrupted by alcohol and other drugs. Also it must deal with all its sordid sexual thoughts. At the same time it has to avoid all the rich people who are trying to tax and con the person until they are homeless and also try to not get arrested and thrown in a cell.

It’s easy to ruin your entire life; a good life is just that delicate. If you actually get lucky and manage to live a good life then you weaken and die of old age, maybe get malignant cancer, maybe you’ll get that as a child, who knows?

I’m not saying we live in Hell, science tells us that this is just the way life turned out. However if you were to construct a planet with the aim in mind to make into a torture planet to mess with the heads of a lot of nice people, then you couldn’t do much of a better job than planet Earth.

Some people enjoy life a lot, usually by solving many of life’s struggles by enslaving those around them with money. Or as in the past just with force alone. If everyone were openly struggling against the planet and its biology then we would at least have camaraderie. Yet on Earth the idea is to just impotently envy others or enslave, con and steal from them. That’s a much better mindfuck than everyone being in the same state of suffering.

We need to band together if we truly are in such a hellhole. A hellhole that looks amazing, double the mindfuck. Yet we don’t band together for it seems we are genetically designed not to like nor care for different groups of people.

Religion seems to be the best coping strategy for living on Earth. When you think about it most religions are all about escaping Earth. Even if they’re not very accurate people appear to prefer being religious to being scientific, I guess because science doesn’t benefit them very much at all.

One of the only cheerful things that ever comes out of science is medicine and even great medicine when fit into the ecosystem of Earth is used as a tool to reap your wealth away from you. Everybody shouldn’t apparently receive great healthcare because it’s not profitable, that’s hellhole thinking alright.

Humans, one of the species resilient and adaptable enough to thrive in a hellhole like Earth may just end up overpopulating the planet and making all our progress in technology amount to a future where nobody is happy because they can’t even procreate and can’t move for other people in their way and where, due to their numbers each person’s value is less.

All that work through History and that’s the best we can do, because life isn’t easy here. Probably because we live in an incredibly harsh environment. It’s basically rocket science difficulty trying to get yourself into a fit shape that you love your entire life. Earth is an unfair place for everyone. Maybe this entire universe is for all we know.

Religion has gotten in the way of us being openly able to understand why we live here. Though it is not without great value. Before the breakthroughs in modern science we didn’t stand much chance of understanding anything so why not be religious? Anything’s better than thinking you’re a conscious robot who lives in a hellhole and that’s all there is.

Islam for example is a well thought out religion. It is designed to get people to survive life here. It does this by uniting a community around the place of worship. Interest on debts is illegal so in order to start new things the place of worship gives interest free loans. Any time someone wants to think for themselves it’s time to pray to an almighty God so that thinking is curtailed and their independent thought with it. It’s designed for life, life here.

Apparently though, despite being happier than atheists the flaw in Islam is it didn’t focus on developing technology because the emphasis is on being devout, with early age brainwashing and repeated prayers. Then you get to modern day and the people who aren’t Muslim have developed technology so much they can walk into your back yard, take anything they want from it such as oil and maybe nuke the entire place after. Science is stronger than faith.

It’s stronger because it actually works. It’s technology that adheres to the laws of thermodynamics and is the bonus of having to struggle to survive. Perhaps the planet is becoming so highly developed simply because Earth is a shithole. If we were born onto some planet were the fruits were as tasty as the meat and there was no viruses and cancers then we would still be relaxing in that paradise. Maybe aliens have had better fortune in their home planet and never bothered making much technology besides what seemed fun.

Maybe we chose to be born as humans on Earth for the understanding that science and technology brings. Despite what it does to us maybe we come here for that jewel to be created. For only in a harsh competitive environment can it be made strong. Earth may be a lot like a form of hell yet the reason for it could be not to punish and warp but to bring into the universe the benefits of having to grow up here. What that may be who knows? Though we are likely set to progress faster in this place than on some nice planet. If there is anything to this universe at all other than being an automatic robot then the meaning of life is what we learn and create after being thrown into hell.

Eric Dawson 2nd/July/2016

The Self, Society and the Soul

I read all my writings and find they are quite hard to read and probably to understand also. Many are just plain rants. So I tried to abbreviate all of it into one work. It is available in audio also via this link https://archive.org/details/theselfthesocietythesoul

1. The Self

So the world seems doomed. What if though it wasn’t? We percieve it with the eyes of our minds and judge it with our emotions. When I say the eyes of our minds I mean that we don’t take it at face value. What is one brief look at a situation? It’s only a small glance. To be able to understand what you saw in one brief glance can take lifetimes.
We rely on our senses to take in what is around us so that we can understand it. Though the more you work on learning to understand more of what you see the more you can see. We as a part of this Universe need to also be able to cope and function inside it so we really see very little and are able to comprehend with our minds very little of what we see and feel.
If i were to tell you that you and everything around you is so amazing and so awe inspiring that it would leave you in a constant state of astonishment would you believe me? Well it is and you can see that too. It’s just a matter of learning to think outside your normal patterns of thought for a while.
If you were to look at any room on planet Earth for example, even the most basic room then there is awe and wonder there and you, as the most intelligent thing in that room are tuned out so that you don’t notice it. Why? Because you need to survive the room so cannot be distracted.
For a start the room is moving through space at a fast rate as it orbits the sun.  The entire room is moving, inside the movement all the things in the air things are moving too. Each breath drawn in and out sends many many air particles off on new courses around the room and around the world.
The air is also full of signals and data being sent, awash with images and sounds you cannot even see. Similarly you can’t see the lives of all the tiny insects and bacteria that live there, leading full lives. The fabric of the room is also hard to see, trillions of variations, compositions and textures all in the shape of one boring room.
Then there’s the History of the entire room, what happened to each bit of it to make it there to become part of a boring room. If there is metal in the room, it was once under the earth in a rock and people came and dug it up , bringing it to the surface and refining the metals until it was formed into a part of the room.
In order for there to be metal in the room many breakthroughs in mining technology had to be reached. Which in turn relied upon breakthroughs in farming, to feed the workers and the economy to make the workers want to mine.  Wars had to be fought in order for the miners to be free to work.
Everything in the room all has a shared History that relied on what really happened on Earth to have happened the way it did. Likewise it all relied on the History of the entire Universe to have happened smoothly and exactly the way it did. Everything effects and relies upon everything else and so do you.
A person in a room has a mind to perceive the room and an identity as a member of the Universe the room is a part of. Everything inside them relied on countless years of natural selection, very many births, lives and deaths make up their history. They are creatures who have evolved all the abilities they need to be able to change things based on thought rather than random trial and error.
All that has a History too, anything made with technology in the room has a history that goes back to the first stone handaxe made. But say the person in the boring room didn’t make the room themselves and they don’t care what did. Just to do that their evolved body is sending masses of information back and forth inside.
Each word, thought and the ability to remember the word goes right back to the first person to understand the meaning of the word and the first memory retention ability formed on Earth. As much as we feel we are alone we are in fact deeply interconnected with everything that ever there was and everything that ever there will be.
Like ‘The Butterfly Effect’ thinking where each beat of a butterfly’s wing could spread out into a storm on the other side of the world. The same way, every single thing that happens to the person and that the person does spreads out and is connected with the History of everything that is in the Universe. The difference being is that the person can choose what to do. They have a willpower and information that helps them choose how to act.

But what if that information is not clear, then they don’t know how to act properly so they resort back to trial and error to satisfy any needs or wants they have. If they find something that works then they’ll stick to it until it doesn’t. Which is a pretty good explanation of all of human History. It just happened the way it did because it was the best idea at the time.
Our History is a horrid mess of war against each other and against other species such as viruses. Any security to stop and think is relatively new to us. We have mostly either been lost in prayer for a better day or working for a better day. Survival here is cut-throat and desperate for wild animals. We live in the same state yet we have each other to help us survive and so forget about the risks.
We have the first major safe breathing room and the first set of scientific facts to try to understand within that breathing room. Everything has been so busy just trying to get us to a point where we had time to relax around a campfire at night and share ideas. It still is busy, just to maintain what we have takes a lot of work. We work so we don’t have to feel the reality that life is cut-throat and desperate, that we could die of thirst after a couple of days without clean drinking water.
What better to do with this earned opportunity than to use it to assess what blind trial and error lead us to. Then to use it as a guideline to start to do what we really want to do and have always wanted to do. To turn Earth into a paradise without true nightmares for our young to grow up in safely and learn to enjoy.
People use the term ‘survival of the fittest’ and many people think this is the only path to follow because that’s all that ever has happened here. A successful changes in a species’ genes help them survive so that their offspring may survive whilst other species die out. Of course that’s a sensible course of action though the term ‘survival of the fittest’ is misleading.
Say if I thought I was the fittest i went and killed everybody else apart from a herd of cows and a childbearing woman. My genes would certainly then be called the fittest because they were the only ones left, apart from the cows of course who would outnumber humans and be the dominant species on Earth.
My offspring would end up interbred and insane. We basically wouldn’t survive without the support of many. If you are overly concerned with your genetics then think how did you take ownership of your genetics? One day you will die and your children may live on thanks to your desire to have sex. Though really the genes you own are the property of everything that came before them to make them. They are the universe’s not yours’.
All the ecosystem of Earth relies on each other for survival. Like we rely on grass growing to feed the cows. The grass relies on bacteria and worms and fertilizer. Everything in our Eco-system in some way relies on each other for survival. Only the fittest ecosystem is what becomes of survival of the fittest.
Considering that we ourselves have so far survived to be here after all the many things that came together to make us. Then we should not see ourselves as a mistake or a part of something negative. Not when we have this pause for thought. We are not really to blame for what we do when we don’t know any better and neither is the species.
Humans have limited perceptions of what we see and understand. We mostly focus on the worst parts of it too. We don’t hold dear memories of most of our life which was spent just doing everyday things. If you ignore all the bad memories and the good memories then most of your life was spent safely just living. Something amazing that we find so boring.
Likewise it was the same for most of the lives ever on Earth. Despite whatever grizzly deaths each life may have met the vastly predominant way of life has mostly been just living day to day and doing normal human, animal or insect type things. If they showed on the News all of the lives that went safely that day, then each day’s News would be so long nobody could ever take it all in. So most of life is at peace and always has been.
History and all the hard lives lead in it is only a recent thing when you consider how long the Universe has been moving around before there ever was a homosapien born. Before we turned to farming we were tribal and hunter-gatherers for most of the History of mankind. That’s nothing to be ashamed of. Yet we often feel negatively about our species after all the technology we made and what we put each other through to make it.
We give ourselves too much credit. The history of humans and the present state of humans can be a very bitter truth to swallow. Some of us have been monstrous to others for no reason at all.  Humans are born not knowing, are born ignorant. We adapt to any status quo so well because we are very good at accepting things for how they are.
We have the ability to adapt to any ideas we need to and since nobody has ever had all the right ideas. So people accept and adapt to the wrong ideas which could lead to anything, often horror and bloodshed.
The world is not how most of us want it to be which is not our fault it just happened that way and mistakes were made. Which is not to say the world could never become what we want it to be. As new lessons are being learned. It may all end up OK and this future we have made so far is not the pinnacle of it, just a traumatic time leading up to a better life.

Our opinions of the same occurrences on this planet in this universe differ greatly depending on who we are. Though at the end of the day each second happens only one way atomically so it has only one truth to it. A truth that might take us lifetimes to understand.  For understanding life is in itself a process.
We are not born automatically able to understand things let alone the meaning of the world and its events. Thankfully even if we live in a mentally restrictive society we can still think whatever we want to inside.  Though how free do you allow yourself to be in your mind? Thinking is a great adventure with many pitfalls.
Thinking about the world and its problems can make you very depressed even if it was all not your fault. If we take our heads out of the drama we can see that there are people suffering here. Everybody who isn’t happy and safe is suffering, if only from depression. There is little value in mourning the negative, the negative should be used only as a way to learn how to make things positive.
If we don’t like something then we need to understand why we don’t.  Many things upset us which are not actually an issue. Like homosexual people being a part of the species. Some people get wound up all their lives about that. But why? Well, someone called Leviticus wrote in a book once that they didn’t like the idea. Because most aren’t homosexual they went along with what was written. Then everyone lost the great value of having openly homosexual friends. Which are an essential part of a human tribe and make life easier for the heterosexual couples.
Our freedom of thought allows us to think our way straight into corruption and idiocy. It can lead us to make great mistakes and commit horrible acts. It can also make us very ill. Where we really need to begin our thoughts is to bring ourselves to the present moment and know that we may be wrong about something. It’s statistically more likely we are wrong about things than right as there are many guesses to only one truth. So let’s admit we could be wrong about everything we know.
To ‘know that we know nothing’ is a way of driving down our egos from thinking our first assumption to something may not actually be accurate. To know that you know nothing is known as the first step on the path to enlightenment and was thought of by Socrates. If you think in this way always then you are always open to being corrected if a better explanation comes along.
For to never be able to change your mind after having made a decision upon something makes you closed off from getting any nearer to the truth of events. You have decided and may be wrong. The essence of the issue being that to be able to rethink matters makes you a lot more intelligent. It also allows you to be able to discuss any matter without freaking out. It is mental leeway and only comes after you know that you know nothing.
If you are free to change your mind you have basically given yourself the freedom to think. You have allowed yourself to change your mind on anything you think you know. You are free to choose how you perceive yourself and the world and the heavens. But the ego will creep in again.
All we really hold of value within ourselves and for ourselves is the honesty we hold inside ourselves. Only we know what we really saw and felt each day. With life being complex and hard in current times it is easy to let a few lies to yourself slip in. Many people’s internal world is one of self-loathing or defending their inner voice from a constant internal feed of negativity. Whilst others big-up themselves internally all the time just to cope with being downgraded in life.
What we need to be is honest about ourselves and to ourselves about everything. What harm could it do? We need to realize we are a part of something much bigger where every life is equal. Internal honesty is a good start to any healthy thought process because when you can trust yourself inside without lying to yourself then you have a much more mental accuracy hence a greater chance of making better decisions.

Who do you blame for the problems you see honestly in your life is an important thing to think about. You can blame nasty people for giving you problems, or blame the drug-dealers or upbringing that made them grow to be nasty to you. You can blame your parents for dragging you into this world. You can blame God for not making life easy. You can blame yourself for your failings.
Really the blame game could go on forever and that is what makes the depressed so suicidal. They think they’ve been done wrong and are trapped in that state, wanting to die to get out of it. As long as you blame outside forces for the state you are in, even if they deserve the blame. Then you are not taking responsibility for yourself.
It’s scary to take responsibility for yourself. It’s always easier to think everything is something else’s mistake, even you. The fact is, you’re here you’re you. You’re as confused as the rest of us deep down and that is OK. Life isn’t ideal for many of us, even if we’re spoilt by riches it can still turn a person into a person they don’t want to be. We must accept who we are but do it in a non-fatalistic way. People do change, just many don’t want to try to.
Our freedom of thought and honesty of thought allows us to be able to change our minds, we can even change parts of ourselves. Though such processes take baby steps, many tiny steps towards a change in the self are needed before anything will change inside you, because you are telling your brain what you want and it adapts eventually in response to your continued willpower to try learn how to be that way if it is possible.
There are three steps to solving any problem. The first is admitting you have a problem which takes a lot of self-honesty, self-forgiveness and understanding. It is the hardest part of solving any problem. The second part of solving a problem is to figure out what to do about the problem. A step which requires great bravery and deep thought.
It is easy to come across great problems when thinking internally, what if you find you have some form of mental illness? Finding you have a neuroses or two is quite normal.  Thinking is hard work. Some develop irrational phobias about anything and everything that control their lives. Others obsess and worry about everything. Being revolted by germs for example and avoiding touching things or being terrified you left the stove on all night long and keeping having to check it.
You can become obsessed with food or your weight. The Ancient Greeks noted many many common irrational neuroses that minds still fall into as we as modern people have similar minds. The third step to solving a problem is to actually invoke the plan and do it. With baby steps many changes are possible within one’s internal world, we are more versatile than we think.
Of course some mental problems are more medical problems that cause mental problems. Schizophrenics genetically seem to give out too many brain chemicals which can cause all sorts of problems such as anxiety, hallucinations and psychosis. The problems go away when blockers are put on the brain cells to stop the chemicals getting in, as it is with anti-psychotic medication.
Many of us feel anxious such as when we are so stressed by our lives that the para-sympathetic nervous response kicks in and we have a panic/anxiety attack, the fight or flight response. Is that really insanity though? If we don’t feel them when we’re alone and at peace then they are a genuine response to a real situation.
However inconvenient it is the sub-conscious brain decides it’s time to leave and puts you through hell just to get out of that situation. Why does it do it? Because it can pick up on the fact that modern society is not quite right in the head and it is scary. It’s not what we’re used to genetically either, we’re used to the great outdoors and tribes not concrete jungles and solitude.
If you have ever found a trace of mental illness in yourself or some highly negative unwarranted thoughts. Then others are likely to have them too.  Those others may be reveling in them though we can’t make the world sane, just ourselves. That is our power and our freedom.
We are all our own worst enemy. When you accept responsibility for yourself then you can admit that. What we fear normally controls us more than we do ourselves. A nightmare dreamt is a realization of that. We are even running in our dreams. We run until we become confident and with enough self-esteem to turn and face all that we fear and face it down.
For what is there to fear? If we die we go whatever way trillions of people already have and perhaps either get reborn or go to some form of afterlife or are merely turned off and don’t have anything to worry about because we have no ability to worry any more. Monsters don’t live here apart from a few big animals and people don’t often need to fear them. The greatest monsters on Earth are viruses and bacteria and they don’t bear ill will, they just want to survive.
The closest thing we get to our nightmares are people who are lost in their heads attacking you for no reason. Because they’re so lost in their heads they like to. We fear going deeper into suffering from being attacked, though that fear is just there to remind you life is not safe, which it is not. But if you already know that then why do you need the fear to tell you that? Because it is better at controlling you than you are, it doesn’t trust your ability to be careful.
To be the master of your mind you need to face your internal fears down. To face your fear down successfully you can grow in strength and confidence. You can have the self-esteem that comes from being in control of yourself and not simply running from existence.

2. The Society

The past of course has already happened. All of the entire history of everything here came to make the history of the world and of people. It has left us in a strange status quo which was inevitable. We grow up in this status quo with imaginary borders all around the world which people have long fought for. It used to be their favorite game.
Also many religions have sprouted up trying to put answers to unanswerable questions at that time. Questions which people would have had to wonder about for their entire lives. Then money was in the mix too and so we’re brought into this universe as children surrounded by a huge information wall of inaccuracies and false advertising.
We grow up thinking a piece of cloth such as a flag is worth dying for. We grow up thinking foreigners are as different to us as aliens. We really see a difference between France and Germany because of this, as an example.  We see it vividly and feel the real difference between France and Germany, however they are the same land mass.
Our history has raised us to be racist basically. It has raised us to think other people are so different that they are a almost a different species. Yet if the French and Germans lived as one country, if the whole world did then how could we hate our own countrymen? Well we could not like them but what I’m trying to say is that we are all the same species and resident on the same planet.
Even if we were not the same species there is no reason to hate someone else just because they are different. Yet we are raised to do just that. Because history was such a mess of war and battles for money, we need our borders. We will need our borders for as long as we keep the ability to become a developed country to ourselves.
People raised hating others don’t naturally want to share with those from a poorer foreign country. If those people in the poorer country can’t afford the items in the rich country then they’re supposed to stay out in the cold. Just as the poor who live in the rich country are supposed to do.
We’re raised in the status quo to think that this is normal healthy behavior for us as a species. To basically hate our fellow man is considered normal, just as long as there’s a difference in accent or just a difference in clothes or hairstyle even. We were not born thinking that way we learned it.
We’re raised to think we were born in one country and therefore are a citizen of that country and owe it taxes and must pay its debts. We may also be born into a family that teaches us to be Muslim, Catholic or any of the religions available today. Which adds a lot more nonsense to what we’re taught to understand as life.
People grow up naturally accepting whatever state life is in at the time as normal and the status quo. This society makes people highly susceptible to manipulation to not even have a sane common-sense start to their lives but one of pure insane nonsense. People do use the shared madness to manipulate each one of us. The rich families basically want to stay rich so they organize society so that to speak out against the madness is considered madness. We are all raised to respect the rich as the leaders of society and not rock the boat of an already precarious seeming status quo where all our lives seem to always be on the line.
Exploitation is natural it seems as all species exploit any chances they get to eat food or gain territory. Humans as tame animals are just the same. Which is why it is important to have a frame of mind where you are not easily manipulated. For that you need to take your head out of all the brainwashing of life and see the facts of humanity for what they are. By doing that we can seal such holes in our armor that leave us vulnerable to exploitation and manipulation.

Currently most people have no clarity of thought and are totally sold to the dogma they are fed and they will even fight you for it, because they’re in so deep they can’t admit that they might be wrong, to fight you or argue with you for talking sense is easier. They fight for the sanity of the dollar. That is all we have left of hope, how sad.
In the pursuit of money we have lost who we are and who we could become. If the global monetary system recirculated financial digits then it would actually work. What actually happens is most of the successful exploit it to become richer and richer so that digits go to waste collected in their bank accounts.
It also puts a price on your life. How much are you worth to keep alive? If you can’t find work then you are probably worth very little. If you get sick and need help then few are likely to give that help. In a totally financial society all are ultimately given a pricetag and are shunned if that price isn’t much.
This is what history has lead us to. Wherever you are born you are priced and left to either survive or starve. This is survival of the fittest in action and you can see how it has twisted who we are as the leaders of all life on Earth. Each other, our tribe is now our competitor in the great game of working for money. The greatest tribe ever has become totally divided.
There’s no real goal in life any more other than to become rich. People choose money over family and soldiers take pay to do any act. The inventions of technology make it all worse, with less work needing to be done to satisfy our basic needs less people are getting paid for that work and the ranks of the homeless are forever swelled.
Money isn’t the worst idea we could have come up with. At least it keeps things moving and most of us fed. Though unemployment is like death so the pinnacle of evolution ends up as a drug fueled party with the poor knocking at the gate, wanting to get in. We’re trapped like that unless we accept who we really are and design society around that instead.
We need to start to comprehend that the rich are not our divine rulers. Most of them are scammers for goodness sakes. Just because they are excellent at making money does not mean we should worship them for as long as we do we put ourselves in a lower, subordinate position.
What if the money didn’t really exist? Then all would be deemed equal. Which is what we really are, just differently skilled. Putting a pricetag on your equals is where we give up any true progress in our emotional and mental evolution. We have sold our future, we have sold our evolution and our hearts.
The problem is money alone doesn’t match who we are as a species for the best possible future. Money in itself needs to be regulated. Basic common sense tells us that if we make a machine to take the work of many we should make sure the many defunct workers can still survive a life.
Those on the bottom of the competition between equals should be given buying power basically. If we really must continue with the idea of cash for a life then there should be a safety net for those left with none. Because what do you get if there is nothing to fall back on? Each one of us could end up homeless and starving, selling our bodies for a sniff of drugs just to cope with it.
Otherwise at every party in the future there will need to be locked doors and armed guards just to keep the poor out. Whilst the partygoers inside need to close off the love in their hearts for anyone not fortunate. That’s the future of humanity and survival here. The best our combined wisdom and armies could do.
The only other solution is to regulate finances. We don’t want to penalize the rich for being successful, that would take away everyone’s life goals of becoming rich. Yet they’re money making addicts who will cut down anyone who tries to stop that. Why don’t we give them a greater purpose to becoming rich? Why don’t we force them to do something worthwhile with their extra cash?
The population of Earth has a whole list of things that need to be done. Some countries don’t even have proper plumbing yet. This love we have of hiding wealth from each other by out-earning them leaves most parts of the world not worth living in. Until the entire world becomes a set of drug fueled parties with locks on the doors.
The best way out of it that I can see is to list every job that needs doing and put laws on how much can be put into savings each year by any businessman. Then force them to spend the extra they make on saving the world basically. Maybe it would make them happy to work for a better world rather than just their bank account. The fact is there needs to be a laws on money that accept base human nature for what it is and produce the best result for all life here out of that knowledge.
For only when each country is nice to live in for all will we ever have any peace and be free to walk our planet unharrased and unmolested. Simply selling out because we can’t think of a better idea actually makes the planet full of places the rich cannot go. Places where humans drag other humans through hell for the idea of money.
When each of us gives up on any better ideas and sells their life to money then they are also buying into the ways which money corrupts. They’re buying into all of it. Such as the idea doctors should refuse treatment to the sick if the sick are poor. They’re buying into the idea that third-world countries should stay third world countries. They’re buying into crack and heroin dealing because they’re just business ideas. All has been made fair play as long as produces a profit.
Though where really is the profit? To have a world you can’t walk and find friends in. To die outside a doctor’s surgery? Not regulating money leaves us with a crappy future where all is not wholesome. Where nobody is happy and all are alone when surrounded by a crowd. It’s just simply not worth the price. The leaders of the Eco-system should be more for the betterment of life not just to make it a battle between all life.
Our laws need to reflect who we are as a species and reflect both the positive and negative strengths of us with the actual result of those laws being directed towards the happiness of all. Making a profit out of curing illness is a good example of how we ended up so twisted. In order for the doctors to gain a good life out of becoming doctors they must let people suffer and die of simple illnesses? How was that a sensible idea?
It’s like our criminal justice systems. They’re very dated and ineffective at fighting crime. Throwing people in cells to spank their bottoms for becoming corrupt and doing negative things, it doesn’t stop the trauma they caused or teach them not to be corrupt. At the end of the day we need to learn to accept other people as people too. Criminals are human beings too. They know what went wrong with their lives and so they know how to prevent crime in others. That should be how we use them, rather than just traumatizing them into having to live out their life in a cell.
Our laws and the implementation of them are very dated and naive. If the idea is to stop crime from happening in the first place then they are as good as useless. In a world of sell outs there really is no reason to follow the lighter course of life. One may as well declare themselves a wolf and the rest of their species sheep and keep on killing and stealing their wool. We should reorganize society so that being nice and good is actually beneficial. This would be beneficial to all.
Which is how society should be structured, with the benefit of all in mind. With a future for all and of course a safety net of having a base value of being a human which isn’t fighting for your stuff in a back alley but of having a secure healthy life to fall back on if your business fails and some buying power to spend in that safety net. We need to bring in laws that give the safety net and spend our spare cash on renovating our own country and other countries to a healthy standard of living so that we do not need borders or locks on the doors of every party. So that it is possible to be happy without drugs because the world is a good place to be born into. To prevent crime and also to take away the need for it so that our streets are safe to walk and developments in technology do not make life worse for all but better.

3. The Soul
There’s a million different theories and ways to explain life as we know it. Spending your life begging a supreme being for everything is deemed normal and healthy. Though what if there is a supreme God and they don’t have any ability to help us? They would be trapped impotently watching us rape each other and tear each other apart.
It must be horrific to be an omnipotent creature. Despite all the boring everyday peaceful things that happen there must be much trauma to witness if you could witness the life of everything on sell out planet Earth.
Whatever God really is then they likely make sense as everything here appears to make sense. Magic seems to be something you have to do with technology. Basically all the fancy explanations of life cannot get past the fact that if you imagined 2+2=5 your fantasy never will come true because 2+2=4.

All life here may have a soul it may not. Souls don’t make financial sense so they are often discounted as a magical idea. That doesn’t have to be the end of the explanation of existence though. When energy leaves a body it’s not easy to get that energy to come back. If we have no soul then there really is no point as we are basically a bunch of automatic robots without even basic humane rights to our lives.
The life of a creature who does not procreate is basically a waste in that realm of thought. Though if they did have children their offspring would always have to procreate or their entire bloodline was a waste of time. The world is heading to crap without some changes in our structure so it’s unlikely your children’s children would be able to afford a Coca Cola just to stop themselves from dying of thirst. There’s no point in going on.
If it does require some sort of soul energy in order to make a life then that soul energy must be a part of this universe where nothing can be destroyed, it can only change forms. Everything is still here from the start of the Big Bang. Just in a different form. It would be the same for any soul energy. For time is only movement inside an eternal cause and effect universe. When a body dies their energy must change forms. We do not know enough to accurately say into what.
Being the soul of a human, if such a thing exists, then it must be pretty bad to be locked into a future and present where everything is for sale for money we cannot take beyond the grave. The time for reorganization of the species to make it worth living is soon. We must give our lives meaning because the meaning of life at the moment is it sucks and then you die.

Eric Dawson 20th/June/2016

A Church for God

Have you ever asked for a sign from God? There are so few signs from a higher being that we’re left to make them up ourselves. The idea of God is that they’re omnipotent, they are in everything and everyone. So it shouldn’t be that hard for them to talk to us. Yet all we get are the voices ill people have inside their heads. People are raised to believe and so they do believe. But what is the point?
I guess the point is to maintain a person’s will to live on Earth. A place full of disasters and ignorance. Yet how could the psychology of a supreme being ever cope with being omnipotent? If you understood everything and were omnipotent then looking at Earth from all directions would be exactly like watching a horror film that went on and on and on. Not a horror film made for fun to entice emotions but a real true tale of insanity, rape and murder.
Take a choir boy being raped for example, or any of the many rapes happening right now. Imagine if you had to watch that from all angles. Feel the utter horror and pain of the boy and at the same time feel the lust and screwed up mind of the rapist priest. The priest wanted to believe that the world was exactly how Jesus’ friends described it so he decided to live without sex from adults and deny who he was and it screwed him up. It’s such a true horror tale on all sides and it’s real and all done in the name of having a church to worship the higher power that has to witness it. You can’t blame demons for it, it’s simply not their fault. You cant just hope you don’t ever feel lust because you’re religious, it’s a strong part of our genetic inheritance.
The lust we have as humans drives on the species it’s what keeps us going or else why the hell would we have children here? What else would make a captive slave want to have children for example? It comes from evolution, evolution is brutal to watch too I assume.  A big mess of gentle creatures being eaten alive. Nowhere near as sick as humanity turned out to be so at least if there is an omnipotent being then the pure utter horror didn’t really start until the last ten thousand years or so.
Some people think that life on Earth is just an endurance test we go through in order to elevate our souls into Heaven. Yet if that were accurate then where is the test for someone born with birth defects that make such a test impossible for them? How is sending someone to get raped and abused going to help anything? How is sending a child to be born with AIDS going to help anything at all?
If there is a higher power then why don’t they just stop all the abuse happening and make Earth into Heaven instead? All they would have to do is prove they exist every few years and people would step to attention and stop giving each other and themselves hell. There must be a simple answer to that which is likely either that a supreme being doesn’t exist or they simply have no power here at this time.
If that is true then is it possible that God is a helpless observer of our nightmares? God could be trapped watching events unfold inside the movement of reality. If anything is watching us then it doesn’t seem like they can help and that must be so hard for them. Any such deity would likely be in great sorrow and near traumatized by all the mess we make.
It does feel like there is an entity watching over us. There may not be, though even if you outlaw religion as in communist USSR times; people still secretly pray and hope. Hope that we as entities have a future after our brief lives. Hope that there is something wiser than us. Faith is hope in a better world where we are taken care of. Hope there is a purpose to our sufferings one day.
Many people think that God or no God we are on a disaster course and wont make it to any better tomorrow. The world is a very sick place and such a set of true nightmares to understand on a deep level that everyone is scared into distracting themselves, trying not to think about it. Just so they can get on with their daily lives so that at least they can try do OK and not be in suffering.
Many are not in suffering right now and that is a good thing. Yet until we sort society out properly, something we rarely try to do; then it’s like having a lavish party whilst homeless people starve to death outside the door as those homeless are watching, desiring the fun, knocking to get in. If God is truly incapable of helping us then the truly faithful should try to alleviate God’s nightmare by making some real changes. Such as genuinely finding ways to protect each other and our young from each other’s mental sicknesses. Finding out how to unite the species past borders and making us a productive and sustainable part of the ecosystem. To figure out how to make our technology work to better us not worsen the situation.
If the world is so messed up that few can even stomach looking at the problems then that to me indicates a serious situation which we can remedy. If we don’t like admitting the worst of our problems and thinking and feeling about them; then imagine what an omnipotent being would feel like being forced to watch them all as the rest of us try to force a good party or stick our heads into some distraction or other for fear of it.
If we had a future where things were getting better fast all over Earth then perhaps our parties wouldn’t need to be drug fueled to make them happy. Maybe we would just be happy just to be here on Earth with so many positive things going on.
Our current direction of trying not to care whilst we really do care is unhealthy. We are all so unhealthy in a lot of ways. Yet it’s not going to help anything to just give up and wait until we all tear each other apart for cash. The drug fueled party is fun but what goes up must come down. The dream life of the nice house with happy kids and a loving spouse cant happen for everyone with such a high price tag. Most of those living the American Dream lifestyle really don’t enjoy it at all and are forced onto antidepressants to stop killing themselves. Modern life is making the developed world more and more miserable and the high price tag makes us all less free to walk any street unharrased and unmolested.
What we need to do is make every country a place where true nightmares don’t happen. Make them a place where none of us are left alone to starve or be attacked. To interlink each community so that no suffering goes unnoticed and no insanity goes without therapy. What we really want I think is a world we love to think about. One where safety is so predominant that to be robbed, murdered, raped or starving is not a thing that happens. Where if someone is ill we do our best to make them better. Living for cash and making technology for cash alone is not going to bring that to us. All it brings are fewer and fewer people who end up with the cash and they are not often very happy without drugs because they don’t want to even think about the reality of the world and are just glad they’re safer than most.
If money is the only language we can understand, then spend it on something useful. Find ways to give cash incentives for people to do positive things. Bribe them, who cares. Money was never real so the end result of it is all the reality it ever has had. Like having a church that cares for the emotional health of any omnipotent being or soul watching us who cannot help. A church where you confess all you did positively that day and that pays you for it out of the church coffers, which of course you could put back in the donation box if you didn’t need it. A church for God.

Eric Dawson 16th/June/2016

Globalization Crowd Funding

As noted several times in my writings I’m pretty sure that if we just decided to save the world then we could. Though we don’t want to because, ‘someone’s got to pay for it all’. Which is fair enough as any such grand project needs the support of the species to make it work and their labor for which they like tokens of money in return so they can pay their rent and bills.

So instead we all sit here like wankers when we could be sharing technological ideas and helping each other all come to the same standard of living across the world. If we continue our current course of building stronger borders between us and poor people who live in shitholes then it will breed ill-will and an unhappy global population of human idiots who are all fighting to live in the countries with nice plumbing and fast wifi.

So how to pay for it all? What if me or someone made a site for globalization crowd-funding, with the aim being to help anyone in a non war-torn country help themselves to make it a country that is great to live in. Maybe one day we will want to move there too. You could have a site like Kickstarter where communities in deprived non war-torn areas around the world could list their projects they need doing.

For example, say a village in Africa were to want a well dug and plumbing in all the shacks for going to the toilet. They could list the job on the Globalization Crowd Funding site with all the expenses listed such as training from someone they import to be foreman for a while, all the necessary materials and diggers but also with funding for the Globalization Crowd Funding representative who would basically ensure that the whole claim for money pledges was legit and none of it was to be embezzled. Also they could pay themselves a wage even for working on their own land, who knows. Then people all over the world who could afford it could pledge money and see what they’re actually giving to and the result of it as listed on the website. 

This would be superior than giving to some random charity where you don’t know what happens to the piles and piles of cash in the chains of paid administrators. Also the business fee of running the website would be just server costs and respectable people could make a living off it just by checking the projects are legitimate. Also there would be a lot of training promoted by the site if they put in the budget for a trained plumbing teacher or two to come over. So knowledge would be shared, machinery would make its way into areas where it is in need which can be even more valuable. Not to mention the boom in industry activity which will help the economy.

Would people give? They already do with Kickstarter, so who knows; that’s just a site for people with creative ideas to get free money.

 

Eric Dawson 03/June/2016

p.s. I don’t really want to run it myself as I’m a mental health patient.